This is about you Lhyn. Monday morning I woke up at around 5:00 am. As I made my morning rituals of preparing a cup of coffee alone. Suddenly, the door opened and as I look around there was no one in the house but me. I knew then that someone or something else I do not see was there. I didn’t mind it because I’m used to it.
Fast forward two days. Last Wednesday after returning home from office I have received a very sad news. In awe, I was aghast and immediately in denial of the thought that you were dead. I felt extremely sad about the news. I seldom cry and I know you know that, but I can’t help but cry alone. Then, I immediately sent a private message and called your sister and she confirmed it. She told me you suffered a shortness of breath and apparently a sudden heart attack. That’s when I realized that probably it was you who opened the door to let me know you were there. We are not in good terms when you shut your eyes for good. We had a terrible fight that ended up with you blocking me in your Facebook account. I can not find words to describe the pain in my heart. Memories came back, We talked about death and how you think your life is getting near to the end but I always don’t get it too serious because I know your young and on your prime. I have never thought this day would come, not in my wildest dream.
Why so early? You really took us by surprise. You didn’t give us a chance to say Goodbye. You didn’t give me a chance to say sorry. If you feel you want to talk to me please visit me in my dreams, just in my dreams okay? I really hope you did not die in pain. Did you? I could only mourn and moved on to my life. Never will I forget that sometime in our life we crossed our path and have a wonderful life together. Keiko must have been terrified without you by her side.
Frankly, I still have disorganize thoughts upon writing this. I am still shocked and in disbelief up until now. I just want to say I’m sorry for everything. I will never ever forget about you. Us is different. Go in peace. Time for you to meet our creator. Let us pray for the eternal repose of Noemielyn Solite. You will be missed.
When life takes its own course sometimes we just don’t get to choose… – Ian Axel